skull_savior's Journal

4:26pm: http://www.kinghost.com/hardcore/sai/3rd/a238/a238.htm

2:31pm: WAtCH THIS VIDEO!!!!!!!!!!

ignore the advert that comes up just get rid of the window

i LOOOVVVEE TBM

http://thebirthdaymassacre.com/blue-video1.html



http://www.nothingandnowhere.com/

1:36pm: eh he he heheh hehe
just spent 15 days sitting on my arse watching every video i own and 10 of henrys
lots of beavis and butthead and hellraiser he ehehe heh bunghole!!!!

lots of debt and stuff but who cares i have been smoking weed for 15 days and fucking and magiking my way to sweet oblivion mmmmmm oblivion haze me feel good...miss habging out with gemma and tinka but i still have no mobile..(probably why im so chilled)...my nob is now in perfect working order...slimelight was good but only cos we made it good..it is a bit drugfree there now and it doesnt seem as good now its been done up .. oh well..

i want to go to a fetish night but im not sure when the next good one is on..

i had a spliff this morning to ease my way back into work and am dossing and stomping around the street giving out the odd ticket

oh wwell see yas all latas

3:49pm: On holiday from work am going to slimelight on sat ....who wants to come 'a'??????

3:00pm: the traffic wardening is pretty ok (ish) i have 15 days off and im going to slimelight for pollys birthday on the 19th, soon ill upload the pics of me meeting junko mizuno...she looks a bit scared of me though!!!

things are going ok ..i have a very long story im dying to tell about halloween and me on mdma and jd at a huge party my housemates had. i ended the night by threatening my girlys ex with a boken and a kitchen knife!!!!! heh. ill go into more detail another time ...i found the cunts wallet the next day and broke up all his cards etc and binned the lot.

i have a new found love for isis

i am obssesed with the screaming squirrels in queens park (i never new they could scream)

i now have a skinhead with sideburns

my nobs still dodgy (going to doctors tommorow)

had a great time at the last vice (look at my little horns)
im the pimp daddy in the middle (of course)

http://www.viceparty.com/images/oct05/scores6.jpg

heres me at innocence..another good night out...and look its gemma!! yay

http://images14.fotki.com/v218/photos/3/352522/2617246/couple2-vi.jpg

anyway hope all is well wit all of ja

i will be back!!!!!!

1:49pm: yeah yeah im chillin...just having a really good time , had some great nights out and met junko mizuno!!!!!!

1:53pm: well what can i say...got new house, got new girlfriend, no internet ...boo hooo....waiting to start living again

9:48pm: luuurve love will tear us aparrrrt agaaaiin.....

oh! dear...what have i become..lost in the twilight zone of still being in love with my ex, not caring about my life and not turning up at work...drinking every night...clubbing every night...feeling like shit...feeling happy ...feeling worthless...feeling confident....feeling suicidal again...noise noise noise doing coke smoking weed drinking beers. and last but not least pissing blood.

i do just want to go back in time and for me n her to work in the hospital together like i was when i started this journal, i was so happy then...

i have to magically conjour up 500 quid for the 19th too, how the fuck am i going to do that?

the guy my ex is seeing has a bigger dick than me , he is going to take her on holiday (which i always wanted to do but was always too lazy and poor to do) he is talented, has a good fashion sense and she has always fancied him even when we were going steady. He was also a good friend of mine , until now. i just wish that i didnt feel so heartbroken over it all ... i dont ever ever want to lose her..and i know that i will to him....

god i am becoming more pathetic with every passing day

i do wish that i could self harm cos now would be a really good time to start.

my mind is stronger than all of this shit..i know that...but who can deny the strength of such painfull emotion. Love is tearing my soul apart.

11:28am: things sure are getting better!!! i had a great meal, sex with a hot girl...smoked loads of skunk then woke up and had 4 cars actually towed away and crushed by 10 oclock (no tax) ha ha hah CRUSH CRUSH CRUSH

4:32am: shit ......my favourite films fright night and 976 evil had this really cool guy in it...now look what hes doing...evil..brooster youre soooo coool

Seamen Training Day (2002) (V) (as Stephan Bordeaux)


Quick Study: Sex Ed 1 (1998) (V) (as Sam Ritter) .... Woodwork Teacher
Famous Again (1998)
Gay Men In Uniform (1998) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Guys Who Crave Big Cocks (1998) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Halfway House Hunks (1998) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Private Temptations (1998) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
The Big Screw Up (1997) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Black Men, White Men (1997) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Buff and Gay (1997) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Butt Blazer (1997) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Cock Pit (1997) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Manhunt (1997) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Motel Sex (1997) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Transsexual Prostitues 2 (1997) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Transsexual Prostitutes (1997) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Hell's Paradox (1996) (as Stephen Geoffries) .... Rabbit
Hunk Hotel (1996) (V) .... Updyke
Just 18 and Gay (1996) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Latin Crotch Rockets (1996) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Mechanics bi Day, Lube Job bi Night (1995) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Virtual Stud (1995) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Sex on the Beach (1994/II) (V) (as Sam Ritter)
Wild Blade (1991) .... Colt
Moon 44 (1990) .... Cookie
... aka Intruder


The Chair (1989) .... Roach
... aka Hot Seat
The Road Raiders (1989) (TV) .... Einstein
976-EVIL (1989) .... Hoax
At Close Range (1986) .... Aggie
Fright Night (1985) .... Evil Ed Thompson
Fraternity Vacation (1985) .... Wendell Tvedt
Heaven Help Us (1985) .... Williams
... aka Catholic Boys

12:07am: everyones going to las vagueness or whatever its called...sounds good but i couldnt afford it considering i dont have any money for food ..still i have been cheered up so much by all the different people i know i feel kind of good...plus i have my deposit on my new house share..so i feel pretty good...although i still miss jenny...id have loved to go to that festival with her ..we could have got married...aaaa well

1:12am: last night i moved in with my mother...my brother ,who has also had to move back home, said that all we both needed was for my father to come to visit and then both our lives would be destroyed. I can see his point. This sucks!...i am in hell

3:29am: my distaste for christians and the work of charities, and the homeless (despite being homeless) has led me to piss off the people who i live with so that they want to chuck me out, this doesnt surprise me as i am a 'train wreck of a man' as jenny so aptly put last time i spoke with her...its 3.32 and i have been kept up cos the people i live with have a perfect right to stay up on days off and my bed is the sofa..claires friends seem to know so i guess she has been complaining about it .. ..its just that i had a long heavy weekend and i just wanted to sleep..i dont know how long i can keep this up i really dont...everyday life gets darker and more and more dangerous for me..i chain smoke now..i am going to drink some jd so it knocks me out but im going to have a FUCKING shit day at work and ill have nowhere to live now..

fucks sake i dont even know why im writing this...i guess i have knowone to talk to at all now... im fucked up i wish i could self harm or something but even that seems utterlt deviod of comfort...what the fuck is happening to me..the skin on the palms of my hands is peeling away all over and my feet have turned bright red..i know its the stress but its making my misery even worse.

when im in my traffic pig outfit and i have had no sleep it hard to deal with aggresive people..i think that if someone starts some shit with me tommorow im going to bash their fucking head in with my computer and go down for life.

10:48pm: filth was SOOOOO good!!!

dont want to go back to work

1:11am: i know she dumped me...i know why....cos i have sucked......BIG balls,,, but i really think that one day far far into the future i may get back with her... idont know why i feel this way but i seem to be quite accurate a psychic so i hope it happens....she is SO fucking hot, i cant describe how beautiful that young lady is....

2:53pm: had a another great night out!!!!

went to another fetish club, and did even more dirty despicable things...with some really hot girls

11:33pm: http://www.scoresdaisy.com/latestpartypics.htm

i had such a good time on my 25th that i didnt feel like wanting to die anymore...the subsequant comedown from the pills was harsh but manageable with plenty of booze and weed of course..

the second from the right is me!!! and the young lady is errrrr hmmmm ..i cant remember cos im stoned but she is a lovely girl that i have met on several occasions, she is a pretty one too

and just for ONCE i am not gurning!!! hooooray!!!!

1:49am: miss jenny...miss her so much

i love her

everyone tells me to forget her and move on...but no one can understand how much i love her

1:36am: http://www.look-alikes.com/actf16.htm

i think she sounds fucking crazy!

i wonder if she has ever taken acid?

1:01am: i am freeeeeeeeeking out.........

i have found the greatest little dolls in allll the world...if i had some of these i would never be lonely again.....i dont know how the fuck ill get them but i work opposite a little jap toy import shop ...ill go and talk to the manager tomorow....

please click these links ...im speechlessly in ore...

http://www.mmm.ne.jp/%7Ebutoh/rbc/twinkle/debut_01.html

i want the one with the eye patch!!

http://www.mmm.ne.jp/~butoh/tokageza/reijin_00.html

....yes please...... http://blog.goo.ne.jp/le-boudoir/

http://blog.goo.ne.jp/le-boudoir/

SWEET FUCKING JESUS this one is a private not for sale hand painted perfect creature!!!!!

http://www.ops.dti.ne.jp/~femut/KIKITOP.html

12:07am: i know who my real boys are fuck all you other fools who dont really know me ha ha haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

4:14pm: im bored now ...boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

11:23am: FINALLY A NICE PICTURE OF ME!!!!
Sorry...i havent posted in a long time....cos im so poor and depressed it wouldnt have been interesting....i do have an intervew to be a traffic warden on thursday so i may get to wear a cool uniform and go round pissing off stupid motorists ha ha .....

i have got a little bit of weed, ive had some pleasently x rated sex, ive read a little 120 days of sodom again, read my fav porn mag FOX, and i been clubbin thanks to gemma

http://public.fotki.com/scoresdaisypromotions/viceparty/glamourtwins.html

thats me n my girlfriend....ahhhhhh dont she look pretty...im gurning like fuck in the other one on there site
i got lots of photos taken of me that night which never usually happens...they normally push me out of the way and shoot jenny....

3:18pm: all this time and im still laying around in the sun ....jennys bro went to amsterdam and sent himself loads of different kinds of skunk and hash in a dvd packet and it came through the post...mmmmm tastes sooo good...im on benefits now so some money may come along soon.....i am thinking of getting a job as a traffic warden as i loathe cars and people and enjoy wearing a uniform and being hated ...plus i can walk around the town listening to my walkman all day...will apply soon..

7:27pm: broke....but laying in the sun and drinkin n smoking...mmmmm

soon ill get a copy of hellraiser 2 which has been signed to me and has a picture inside...my friends the daughter of the animator (who did all the animated sequences) hoooray!!!!!